Sometimes...

There are days that I wish that I could bring back things I have done or words that I said. There are days that I wish that I didn't think the way I did. Especially when I am in the wrong side of things. Or that is what I think.

There are times that I wish that I live in my own little world and not be concerned about anything and everything. There are moments that I wish that there are no responsibilities and I just need to think about my own.

There are periods that I yearn to open up myself and fear not the judgments or the need for explanations. There are times that I desire to retreat and just be quiet at the side. The are times that I wish I am not the one who always seemed to be so understanding and listening and instead be understood and be listened to.

There are momens that I wish that I am not who I am yet knowing that I could not go back to how I was before. There are times that I wish I could cry and not stop until there are no more tears that would drop. Times I wish I am already in the presence of God and remain there in his peace.

Yet that cannot be. Not yet.

I am here on earth. Running the race. Faltering, running out of breath. I only need to reach out for the helping hand. It is there for sure, I know. I just wish I could always have the faith to hold on to it.