Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going
Nor do I really know myself,
And the fact that I think I am following
your will does not mean that I am
But I believe that the desire to please
Therefore will I trust you always
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
Thursday, March 05, 2009
We face them each day. Responsibilities. Expectations.
I remember a colleague who expected me to give her instructions and when I did not, she felt I was not doing my job. She later found out why. This responsibility was not given to me when I arrived. It was an unnecessary misunderstanding. If only we knew from the beginning. It was impossible to deliver what is expected because there was no responsibility mandated.
An example in another setting. Once, make that twice, I inquired publicly about the status of a project. Suddenly, the overseeing was assigned to me. I felt trapped, helpless, knowing that this responsibility was given to me incorrectly. I knew I did not have enough credibility to assure its completion. It hurt when its failure was established. I insisted since the beginning that it should not be given to me but my wishes were disregarded. A classic of expecting a lot from a responsibility that should not have been given in the first place.
At the other side of the spectrum, I was challenged to handle a certain duty. In fact, I sort of volunteered. I felt called to say yes to the call. I believe that I was able to make a difference despite the difficult journey. The reason? I knew what was expected of me when I assumed the responsibility wholeheartedly. I was able to direct all my energies and capabilities, guided by God of course, to do what was expected of me. The responsibilities and expectations were clear.
All of us face responsibilities and expectations. It is just the way it is.
As a student or teacher, as boss or staff, even as a co-worker, a mother/father or child, as a friend, either male or female, grandparents or grandchildren, church leader or member, husband or wife, as neighbors, as buyer or seller, client or supplier, government official or constituent, as a writer or reader, or as any of the many other relationships we could have.
Many who learn what is required of them, accept and deliver. The result is beautiful. But there are others who deny or run from what is rightfully expected of them. We may possibly find real fault in them. What about those who were forced to take responsibilities they knew they should not have assumed? I think they do not deserve the blame. Or maybe just for not saying no? But what about those who could not respond because they do not know what is being required of them? Maybe only because they should have known? I do not know.
Thoughts in my head…
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Arrival at Schipol Airport. Train to Central Station. Successfully deciphered how the ticket dispenser works! I had to ask my seat neighbor where to get off.
Sandwich dinner (with chips and chocolates! Yummy!) inside my room. Doors were being opened and closed noisily. Giggles and babbles of girls permeated the walls. Someone was definitely breaking the no-smoking rule.
Checked out the 7:30pm Bible study at the cafeteria. Hmmm… people were just eating so availed of the free internet. Spent some quiet time in my room and prepared for the early day tomorrow. I planned to beat the long lines to the museums.
I hit the showers at 5:45 am. To be way ahead of the other girls. Great shower and toilet room. All in red, clean, spacious, and perfumed.
Breakfast at 8am was free. People seem to move slowly in this place. Burnt pancakes with jam, butter and syrup. I ordered eggs but they came with toasted bread. I packed them for lunch instead.
I went out and discovered it was drizzling and foggy. And definitely cold. Good thing I love the rain. Hmmm… except when I don’t know where I am!
Off to my first destination. Museum of Anne Franck’s Diary. Teary-eyed when I visited their secret hiding place. Imagine not seeing the outside world for more than two years and to live in fear and isolation. She was one great young writer.
The next one in my itinerary (I only had two!) was Van Gogh Museum, my fave painter. The walk was long and it was not easy to find. People (male or female) were not very good in giving directions. The last one who offered to help gave the right instructions! Talk about falling in line ( a long one!) un
der the rain. And just behind a couple smoking. After an hour of waiting, I finally made it in! And enjoyed the special exhibition of Colours of the Night (special feature : Starry Night). Off to the permanent collection. I just wish he didn’t shoot himself.
My feet were killing me so I sat for awhile. Calculated the time I need to make it to the Central Station. Decided to take the tram since it would save me time. Got a bit lost. A tram driver gave me a wrong direction.
Checked out from the hostel. And readily forgot the Van Gogh painting I bought. And rode the tram to the wrong direction. The challenge? Rain, heavy suitcase and backpack, wrong tram while trying to make the ride within the allocated 1 hour time of the ticket.
At the Central Station, I needed to buy a train ticket to the Hague. Guess what? It was being sold in another ticketing office. Talk about complicated. The ticketing person couldn’t speak in English so I had to double check the number of the train platform from other people. I went up and down and up again. And discovered the escalator too late. Inside the train, I was back to being uncertain. There was no announcement where it was heading. I missed the Paris metro system. People were asking back and forth where the train was stopping.
I was just happy to leave Amsterdam because in the Hague, I would see a friend waiting.
Note: Pictures from the internet. It was raining and thus not advisable to take pictures. Cameras not allowed at the museums.
… getting the silver status (mileage card) which allowed me to enter with the business class people and for my bags to be tagged “priority.” Checking in and getting bags are now a breeze! As an added benefit, I got a seat on the first row of economy class (yes, still in economy!). No one in front of me! More leg room! The stewardess addressed me by my last name when asked what I wanted for dinner! Way cool!
… the cooperative weather in Paris. I was told that it was not as cold as it was two weeks ago! Also for a borrowed thick coat and newly bought thermals which kept me warm!
… accommodating Filipino friends in Paris and the Hague who fed me and let me stay at their houses. Thanks friends!
… safety in Amsterdam. It was challenging to see people whom I am certain have taken some form of drugs. There is that certain smell all around. Just think that in the cafeteria of the Christian place, I saw a couple rolling cannabis into cigarettes!
… good health. I did not get sick even if people around me were coughing and sneezing! And that my feet are still alive despite the long walks I did.
… not missing my plane to Amsterdam. The Air France was partially on strike! I had to wait for more than an hour (normally the interval is every 15 minutes) to get into a bus.
… I only forgot the Van Gogh painting (print copy) at Amsterdam… and not my suitcase or my bag.
… wisdom from God who did not let me get lost in Amsterdam and the Hague even though I didn’t understand all the words they were saying (by the way, it is not true that they all speak English! And even tram drivers give you wrong directions!). Or when I was trying to find Starbucks in the Opera area in Paris.
Lion Chaser Manifesto
Chase the lion.
In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day by Mark Batterson (www.evotional.com)