I am a witness to the miracles of God, and His ways of answering my prayers even though I have misgivings myself. I experience God's answers even though I don't mention it to Him. He knows my heart and He answers, according to His will.
I remember being hesistant in leaving my old job, knowing that God is using me there as I help lead a weekly gathering and discussion about God.
God answered an unspoken prayer. In a million years, I never imagined that all the young Filipina ladies working at my new office would be believers, even the recent newcomer. And so I discovered that there were 5 of us, in different levels of maturity, it is true, yet we all have the same faith. And so He responded to my desire to be used. We meet weekly and it is good. We know our faiths and thus it is a check in itself in how we relate to each other.
And then recently, having had a bad experience with an expat boss who bullied all of his staff and currently having an expat boss who does not communicate with me, I heard with dread that come September I will have a new boss. And all I can do is to raise to God my fear. There were days that I was not able to mention this concern in my prayers and thus I worry.
What will happen? Will I be able to work well with this new boss?Learning later on that my new boss will be a she, I became a little more vexed. Will a lady boss be more difficult? Will she give all the work to me? Will there be shouting matches (highly unlikely from me, a non-confrontational person!)? Will she pick on me?
I have come a long way since my crying days when I had my first expat boss. I believed God has made me stronger. Yet, I hate not working well with my boss. I hate second-guessing what is the current mood of my boss and thus drawing up the right attitude I should have. I hate not knowing what he wants me to do.
And then last tuesday, I met and spoke to her. She's smaller than me. A little bit chubby. Seems friendly. But most striking is the niceness emanating from her. Throughout the week, I had several chats with her. Learned that she shouted with joy upon learning that she will be assigned here in the Philippine (10 points for that! My other boss can't seem to stop complaing about everything here!). Learned that she wants to employs people that needs the job (seems to indicate that she has a soft heart). And to boot, she gave us all presents (beautiful handkerchiefs from Japan) even though she was the new one!
I had hoped so much for this and I know that this is God's wonderful answer. I am a witness to God's wonderful miracle ( some say that the expats that are being sent to our country are those that are being dumped on us, not wanted, but I wonder if this is true).
Yup, I have reservations. I know that there will be problems (life wouldn't be life without those!). There will always be tests. I just need to be prepared.
Now if only the other two expats that will soon come will be as nice. And if only I will one day meet an expat Christian. That would be the day! But miracles do happen.
I remember being hesistant in leaving my old job, knowing that God is using me there as I help lead a weekly gathering and discussion about God.
God answered an unspoken prayer. In a million years, I never imagined that all the young Filipina ladies working at my new office would be believers, even the recent newcomer. And so I discovered that there were 5 of us, in different levels of maturity, it is true, yet we all have the same faith. And so He responded to my desire to be used. We meet weekly and it is good. We know our faiths and thus it is a check in itself in how we relate to each other.
And then recently, having had a bad experience with an expat boss who bullied all of his staff and currently having an expat boss who does not communicate with me, I heard with dread that come September I will have a new boss. And all I can do is to raise to God my fear. There were days that I was not able to mention this concern in my prayers and thus I worry.
What will happen? Will I be able to work well with this new boss?Learning later on that my new boss will be a she, I became a little more vexed. Will a lady boss be more difficult? Will she give all the work to me? Will there be shouting matches (highly unlikely from me, a non-confrontational person!)? Will she pick on me?
I have come a long way since my crying days when I had my first expat boss. I believed God has made me stronger. Yet, I hate not working well with my boss. I hate second-guessing what is the current mood of my boss and thus drawing up the right attitude I should have. I hate not knowing what he wants me to do.
And then last tuesday, I met and spoke to her. She's smaller than me. A little bit chubby. Seems friendly. But most striking is the niceness emanating from her. Throughout the week, I had several chats with her. Learned that she shouted with joy upon learning that she will be assigned here in the Philippine (10 points for that! My other boss can't seem to stop complaing about everything here!). Learned that she wants to employs people that needs the job (seems to indicate that she has a soft heart). And to boot, she gave us all presents (beautiful handkerchiefs from Japan) even though she was the new one!
I had hoped so much for this and I know that this is God's wonderful answer. I am a witness to God's wonderful miracle ( some say that the expats that are being sent to our country are those that are being dumped on us, not wanted, but I wonder if this is true).
Yup, I have reservations. I know that there will be problems (life wouldn't be life without those!). There will always be tests. I just need to be prepared.
Now if only the other two expats that will soon come will be as nice. And if only I will one day meet an expat Christian. That would be the day! But miracles do happen.
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Just remember to have faith always as you did. God will always be with you...
~ audienceone
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